Origjnally posted 12/14/16.
So yesterday I went to the store for groceries. I'm not sure what set me off at first I felt fine when I went into the store. After about ten minutes a started to see a light flickering, then I heard a squeaky cart, I started smelling the bakery and the deli, I felt myself getting dizzy, the kind of dizzy when the room is spinning. I don't even have half of my shopping done yet.
I start hearing the voices of all the people nearby, I can hear the lights and the fridge, its all starting to sound like one loud annoying humming noise. The smells of everyone's perfumes and body orders and baby spit up mix in with the deli and bakery...I feel like im going to pass out.
I space out. I lean against a piller, slide to the floor, close my eyes, and breathe. I don't really know anymore if anyone is around me. I don't think I have actually passed out, I've just gotten my brain to believe im not there. I can't hear, smell, or see anything. I have shut down. If someone touches me I might scream.
I shouldn't shut down at the store but the alternative is having a panic attack...or falling and hitting my head.
I hear someone saying my name and a coat wrap around me. My Husband picks me up off the floor and holds me. I forgot he was there....he came to the store with me but he wasn't shopping with me, he was looking at video games.
He pulls me out of it and stays with me as I finish shopping, distracting me from everything. I don't usually have this much trouble at the grocery store but I guess I was having a bad day.
When I get to the car my head is pounding and I can't drive. I put on my headphones, close my eyes, and let him drive.
People wonder why I hate leaving the house. I never know when I'm going to go into sensory overload. Sometimes I can spend hours at a crowded store and not have a problem. Yesterday the store wasn't even crowded and I had a problem.
I took a nap after I put away groceries lol.
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